I recently shared with my colleagues: one of the ways I get myself out of the funk when I am in it. When I am not empowered, the key for me is to stop ALL action until I am back in the mindset that can actually allow me to do something that will create positive results. And I don’t mean sit back and wait until I feel better, but stop all action in the particular area until I create enough of space to see things that I may have not have been able to see while in the midst of feeling stuck.
So what that looks like literally is: I do the spring cleaning. I look around me at the space where I spent time or do work and I clean it up. I may clean a desk drawer. I may go into my closet and get rid of clothes I am not wearing or that I think no longer represent me and give those away. Mostly, I try to move something physically until I feel motivated enough that I actually want things to be better and feel like that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
When things are sorted out in my environment, I am naturally pulled to do something. If I am still not clear at this point what there is for me to do, then I begin with a set of obvious actions and I make sure I complete those first. As I complete those, my confidence grows, I feel better about myself and at this point I am already having an empowering surroundings and enough evidence of producing small results that I am beginning to see the glimpses of big picture.
And BINGO!!! That is the key… Seeing the big picture that I am inspired by that I can now physically and mentally connect to at which point I need to manage taking small steps to get to where I want to be… I don’t have to question it, I don’t doubt myself as I have created a clear surroundings that allowed me to think straight, think on my own and connect to my inner desires.
This is what I am in a midst of doing. I am clearing my surroundings to make sure I can see clearly. And I am already feeling the smell of fresh air and inspiration for what is possible in future. I know it’s fall (and it’s usually when things are in “fall’) that spring cleaning is the best thing to do.
Please share with me how you get unstuck when you are stuck and if you do the spring cleaning, tell me what it provides for you?
I am sure every new mom will understand that even though I attempted to write my blog a few times since birth of my baby boy, I have gotten distracted every time and therefore this is the first time I am back to writing after little over 10 weeks.
Giving birth was by far the most challenging and rewarding experience in my life. I have labored naturally, with nothing for pain for a little over a full day. There was a point when I wished I could just stop the time and take a break…and I knew, the only way out at this point was through and the way through was scary.
Because I am a coach, and I had an awesome coach while pregnant, I had my time planned perfectly well for those two weeks when I had a baby….Baby came 4 weeks early, so my calendar included everything but what actually ended up happening. But, all my stuff was listed perfectly clear in my outlook calendar so when the doctor sent me to the hospital early the next day, I printed out my calendar for the next 3-4 days and just cancelled or rescheduled what needed to be done. No one was impacted. I even had a coaching call while on monitors for contractions and baby’s heart rate, telling the person I may have to hang up any time but will talk for as long as I can…. And it all got managed.
My husband was by my side and I can say that I sincerely don’t have any idea how single moms do it. Partnership was crucial for me in these moments of total lack of control, something I don’t willingly allow ever. And, as I was about to fade late on Tuesday this first week of September, I felt an urge to push. However, my urge to push was interrupted by my nurse and suddenly the room was full of doctors I didn’t know and the old surgeon who called for a c-section.
I was so scared. I never stayed in a hospital before and didn’t even have stitches for anything let alone surgery. But I had no choice. It was all about keeping baby safe and baby was under distress given that umbilical chord was wrapped around his neck and body and every contraction was creating danger. I was lucky they were doing general anesthesia as I don’t think I could be with people talking about cutting me up.
I woke up in sever pain and with dryness in my mouth. I also continued to have contractions which was painful given there was a cut below my tummy. But besides the physical discomfort, I was pissed that it didn’t go my way. Namely, if I took epidural on time, I would maybe be able to avoid all this and have my baby on my chest as he was delivered – which I was actually not completely thrilled with since I dropped out of medical school because I don’t like seeing blood.
It took me good 3 days to put the pieces of puzzle together and to realize that having a C-section was the best thing that happened to me. I thought I was being cheated on, that they did it to make money on me (as surgery is more expensive than vaginal birth and it’s number is increasing in America at the speed of light)…but as I was having conversations with my doctor and nurses, I realized my birth was perfect.
Finally I understand what I’ve been told all along, that each birth is different and each birth is perfect and that the best way to approach it is to stop resisting and let the baby do his/her job and let the body to do its job and that it will all turn out.
My baby is healthy, and the journey of motherhood challenging and amazing….I am grateful to all the moms who helped me know what I needed to know, who warned me, educated me and listened to me and shared their experience so vulnerably with me so I can feel included and not alone.